to write something every day. How successful I will be remains to be seen. If I can't hold this job down, forget about it. The next time you hear from me will be in some foreign country getting shot at again. Sooner or later there comes a point in time where you have to embrace your fate and stop trying to change it. And recent history speaks to a path I do not want to walk down but may have no choice.

I've got to make this work if I am ever going to be able to see her for who she really is.

And who I really am.